I'm missing someone really much ~_~
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I'm missing someone really much ~_~
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In my case which is sorta same as yours , it made me come here and join the community instead of observing it from a distance. I came here knowing that I will see the certain person with another guy everyday. Without any motivation like "oh maybe she will come back to me". Just came here and spent my time with filling the new emptiness opened in me. Well, she came back though.Vext wrote:
I realized I have no reason to come to osu! really. I don't actually really play, nor do I really get on to actually do anything. A while back I left for a few months, it was not by choice but alas I had no real desire to come back. Why did I? Well, everyone thinks it was because I missed it or because a lot of people wanted me to... But actually, that's not true. The real reason is actually for one person. It was a person I was not able to talk to, nor would be able to for probably years. I thought to myself "What if one of us tries to get in touch down the road?" Well it cannot really be done, in time everyone will forget an email or whatever contact means without frequenting it. So I came back, would log in every so often and make say 1 post or something, to where if you looked at my recent posts it would be active consistently at least every couple of days. I did this as a sort of message, an "I'll always be here waiting if you need me." sort of thing. One day they did make contact, to my dismay essentially every word uttered by them had the intent to hurt me in some way, to this day they're on here, apparently spreading rumors and telling lies of me. Perhaps I stay as just a habit, or out of a foolish subconscious longing for this to not be true and that one day the reason I did this will come true. Either way, every fiber of my being both mental and physical would be repulsed at the very sight of them now and I would refuse to even speak with them. I probably just stay for the same reason I'm bothering to post a srs bsn tl;dr in an Off-Topic thread nobody gives two shits about unless it's funny. Honestly? I do not actually know why, just a feeling that I should or want to with no explanation.
tl;dr: I hate myself and I want to die / Cry cry emo tears / I want attention / nonsensical rambling / I'm secretly 2 midgets in a trench coat.
Pick whatever one you wanna apply.
I dislike this "drama" thing but also believe it's necessary to be serious, honest and heart-to-heart sometimes. So I won't pick any of that judgements you foresaw on people.
nobody has ever said anything bad about you to me.Vext wrote:
Someone messaged me yesterday and asked me why I keep coming here if it is not to play the game or anything.
So I thought for a minute and well, tbh I have no answer for it. I realized I have no reason to come to osu! really. I don't actually really play, nor do I really get on to actually do anything. A while back I left for a few months, it was not by choice but alas I had no real desire to come back. Why did I? Well, everyone thinks it was because I missed it or because a lot of people wanted me to... But actually, that's not true. The real reason is actually for one person. It was a person I was not able to talk to, nor would be able to for probably years. I thought to myself "What if one of us tries to get in touch down the road?" Well it cannot really be done, in time everyone will forget an email or whatever contact means without frequenting it. So I came back, would log in every so often and make say 1 post or something, to where if you looked at my recent posts it would be active consistently at least every couple of days. I did this as a sort of message, an "I'll always be here waiting if you need me." sort of thing. One day they did make contact, to my dismay essentially every word uttered by them had the intent to hurt me in some way, to this day they're on here, apparently spreading rumors and telling lies of me. Perhaps I stay as just a habit, or out of a foolish subconscious longing for this to not be true and that one day the reason I did this will come true. Either way, every fiber of my being both mental and physical would be repulsed at the very sight of them now and I would refuse to even speak with them. I probably just stay for the same reason I'm bothering to post a srs bsn tl;dr in an Off-Topic thread nobody gives two shits about unless it's funny. Honestly? I do not actually know why, just a feeling that I should or want to with no explanation.
tl;dr: I hate myself and I want to die / Cry cry emo tears / I want attention / nonsensical rambling / I'm secretly 2 midgets in a trench coat.
Pick whatever one you wanna apply.
I was told by a couple of different people the same things that were said about me, hah, I pity the ones that were dumb enough to believe such absurdity.
Also Quar, how did you know I was so black when I found out!? Your perception is nothing short of stunning.
Also Quar, how did you know I was so black when I found out!? Your perception is nothing short of stunning.
Well, I confess that I feel very uncomfortable, when I write smth here. I am a new person here and you know, I'm really afraid that you'll all get bored because of me T_T
Srsly, it's the second time I'm posting smth not in some russian forums and... I've got too much to say sometimes. Sorry for disturbing you C:
Srsly, it's the second time I'm posting smth not in some russian forums and... I've got too much to say sometimes. Sorry for disturbing you C:
I wish that sometimes that everyone on osu could just get along and be happy, for everyone to live peacefully with a life free of sadness and despair
Vext for the record I never heard any bad rumors about you either. And I've been around for two and a half years (although I have only recently been active on the forums)
Confession of my own: Calling me smart goes straight to my ego. Likewise calling me stupid can make me depressed (only if I know someone means it)
Confession of my own: Calling me smart goes straight to my ego. Likewise calling me stupid can make me depressed (only if I know someone means it)
i'm just self centered
nothing to hide about that lol
nothing to hide about that lol
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To be clear, I heard a lot about Vext from the opposite side. Also I even knew about the case before coming here. But I won't believe anything without listening the both side as I told to person who told me about that things. Not interested in playing the partial.
Don't be that nervous, not everyone is spoiled enough to judge or ignore you. But if you keep that "because of me T_T" bullshit, anyone can take advantage of it and treat you like a pavement.CaptainJustice wrote:
Well, I confess that I feel very uncomfortable, when I write smth here. I am a new person here and you know, I'm really afraid that you'll all get bored because of me T_T
Srsly, it's the second time I'm posting smth not in some russian forums and... I've got too much to say sometimes. Sorry for disturbing you C:
I agree, it's not a good thing to let your self-esteem get out of control. We all have no reason to judge you. And trust me, you probably can't be any more boring than me. All I tend to do is make serious posts in the off-topic board
Thinking about it a little more, why do I do that?
Thinking about it a little more, why do I do that?
Be sure, it's a momentary weaknessAeidxst wrote:
But if you keep that "because of me T_T" bullshit, anyone can take advantage of it and treat you like a pavement.
I'm incredibly shy when it comes to making new friends, and people say im like a human Fluttershy! But, I can confess that I am determined and more than willing to become the best at taiko! I want to be the best, and I will take on any challenge ahead, but it's the new friends I make and the journey to get to #1 that makes me want to do it even more~
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Will you become hokage as well, Naruto-kun?
Heuheuheuheuheu I see what you did thurAeidxst wrote:
Will you become hokage as well, Naruto-kun?
she_old
i often add people to see if they are mutual and if they arent i remove them again
I do this more often than I'd like to admit.silmarilen wrote:
i often add people to see if they are mutual and if they arent i remove them again
I also do the same, but only if they are interesting enough. I keep them on my friends list even if they're not mutual.
Sometimes, especially when a sad songs plays in the background, I think about my life. How shitty it is. How much better it could have been. If I wouldn't have wasted all my time on some shitty board, playing videogames and disregarding my studies. I was even starting to become more social a couple of years ago. Started going out every weekend, having fun. What the fuck happened? ;_;
It's Hokage.
Your avatar makes it even more sad ;___;
IKR. If I had never started watching Anime I would have had so much more freetime to do "better" stuff.animask wrote:
Your avatar makes it even more sad ;___;
T-To be honest, I want to be Ani-senpai's friend, but I'm too shy to ask >\\<
you don't ask
you add him & stalk the fuck out of that motherfucker
you add him & stalk the fuck out of that motherfucker
Now I like you.noneed wrote:
Sometimes, especially when a sad songs plays in the background, I think about my life. How shitty it is. How much better it could have been. If I wouldn't have wasted all my time on some shitty board, playing videogames and disregarding my studies. I was even starting to become more social a couple of years ago. Started going out every weekend, having fun. What the fuck happened? ;_;
i find clannad at most average so far (it was fun at the start but most of the fun is gone now) im wondering why its so highly rated
Did you finish After Story?
The second half of the second season is why it's so highly rated (and, rightly so imo).
The second half of the second season is why it's so highly rated (and, rightly so imo).
no im at ep 14 of the first season right now
Confession: I am a loli, I play dance games, and I love to cook, my dream job is to work in a maid cafe one day~ 
Confirmed man.InfiniteVoci wrote:
Confession: I am a loli, I play dance games, and I love to cook, my dream job is to work in a maid cafe one day~
why does it seem like every dude wants to be a girl and vice versaVext wrote:
Confirmed man.InfiniteVoci wrote:
Confession: I am a loli, I play dance games, and I love to cook, my dream job is to work in a maid cafe one day~
BE PROUD OF YOUR EXTRA X/Y CHROMOSOME!
Never! I demand to be able to bleed for a week every month!
you can do that as a man aswell
15 is hardly loli, the loli zone is like 4-12.
ah, I see where you're coming from then. Something tells me that your opinion will change as you start the second season though. Clannad goes in a direction very rarely addressed in anime; it is quite profound in that regard.silmarilen wrote:
no im at ep 14 of the first season right now
I know I'm 15, but everyone says I'm a loli, so I kinda just went with it hahahaha
(ps I'm not a guy, I'm a girl desu~)
(ps I'm not a guy, I'm a girl desu~)
You find it average because you're at the average part.silmarilen wrote:
no im at ep 14 of the first season right now
I remember when I was Vext's loli. Then I got old.