It's possible you've already achieved that goal but can't see it since you're way up there rather than where you were a few years ago (way down here). That is to say that my opinion of you and how I admire you would change drastically if I entered the top 10. At that point you become more of a rival than an idol, and what becomes my ideal becomes real. Somewhere along the way the sparkles and glitter disappear, I suppose.