Hey guys, I'm back with more experience from my life and how osu has affected it and stuff, Enjoy I suppose. Since the last time my story ended was about 2-3 years ago and things have remained inactive for the most part. Not much to say there, I haven't really gotten better at the game or interacted with osu in anyway. So I guess I'll start it at about November 24, 2019. Today was normal about as any other day. This is also the day I let a number of mistakes ruin (I wouldn't say my life because I refuse to let it be that serious). If you're still wondering what happened, I had received a message on steam. I didn't recognize the name immediately and they asked me for my discord and I immediately recognized an old name that I have seen in well 2-3 years. Jello had returned! (For those of you who don't know who Jello is, she is a girl who I was best friends with for my osu experience. We stopped talking for unclear reasons and it bothered me for quite a bit of time. Eventually I got over it.) She had been interested in talking again and who was I to turn her down. I love talking to before and most of all I enjoyed talking with her. So we started talking again and started becoming really good friends but here is where I made my first mistake "I started developing feelings for her". This was over a course of time where I had lacked trust but then slowly started believing that maybe she wasn't gonna leave. I had had feelings for her before and of course it didn't work out. Although for some reason I thought maybe it would be different this time. However Jello just isn't a girl who is interested in a relationship (plus there is a serious distance but that wasn't the problem). So there are moments where we not really flirt but more joke around and I'm smart enough to understand that. A bit after that this where I make my second mistake, "I confess that I may be in love with her". Now I already knew this was a big no-no but I thought I should at least tell her. She gave the usual she just isn't interested in relationships. For the longest time I just didn't feel satisfied with that answer. I have always been a stubborn person and it wasn't really a no to me. So of course this made me make my third mistake, "I couldn't get over her in the sense it showed a more dark and sad part of me". Yes I did have a broken heart and it was really painful to talk about it. Thinking back on it, I think she pitied me and felt bad for me which I kind of knew at the time but I was caught up in my own emotions. On another note at some point she had said the more she played osu or talked about it the more she disliked me. Take that how you want it. Although I did see an increase of me playing more osu after she came back, but back to what I was saying. It's not hard to tell how the rest of this story goes. I let my feelings change the dynamic of our friendship that she had came back for. I guess you could say I let it turn me into a different person. Perhaps I never changed at all. I let something made me the happiest I ever been break me down. But then again you shouldn't put that much pressure on one person. One day she just told me that she had had enough that our friendship wasn't making her happy anymore. I let everything about me not just one thing take away her happiness. And so she left but it went a bit different from the times before that. All the times she had left before it was sudden and without notice. She would just disappear. This time she actually said goodbye. Somehow I had felt like I'd been waiting to hear that for a long time. I've done some scary things because of my sadness after that. But I feel like I can live with that leave. By all means I'm still not happy but I think I can say I can move on. I did move on but I guess I just wanted to hear that before she left if you know what I mean. Osu has given me moments I'd never thought I experience and moments I dread. Osu is like a rollercoaster that has its ups and downs. Am I glad that I experienced this or would I rather have never experienced it at all? Well any experience is a moment to grow and I wouldn't have it any other way. This is probably the last story I will upload about Jello/osu although who knows what will happen. Osu is full of experiences that was just waiting to smack into your face. Thank you for listening to my story, enjoy your osu career, and once again have a good day and see ya in the future.