honestly, it's still quite a tough situation to be in. only so much could be done.
with things as they are now, i'd try to get in touch with friends and all, and get straight to work on music and art for the game i'm working on for my team.
i'll try to get as much done as i reasonably can to leave them off with as many useful assets for the game, so they can show it off and make something fucking amazing for others to experience.
i wish i could make my animation series, but sadly, i can't realistically do anything there within that scenario. so, my dreams there are a bit crushed.
with about 4 hours left, i'd probably be tired as all hell. i'll write a note or something for the family to share, something that can probably help my dad get out of this shit with his terrible luck in life, with all the stress he's already had. i don't think my death would help him at all, in fact, it'd break him, but if i can keep him going afterwards, i'd be happy enough. i'd try to keep my mom alive too as she's incredibly emotionally attached, and i'll try to remind her not to rely solely on the promise of some eternal life of sorts, and consider the actual situation of the religious organization she's in, to please get out while she still can, and not subject the remainder of her life to something as dreary as that lifestyle.
my aunt would be alright, probably, but it might hurt quite a bit. same with my cousins and whoever i happen to be the uncle of.
then i'll try and address her, as she's one of the only reasons i lived up until then, and she helped me through a ton of shit, whether or not she knows it, and for her to keep going, to keep making art, keep practicing those instruments, and to be optimistic like hell and save someone else's life as she did mine. i may have not ever gotten to really develop much more than a friendship with her despite her being my old middle school crush, but I think she's pretty important to me. she's the only person to make me feel as much as i did in a time where apathy and near-suicidal depression, as well as multiple existential crises, had enveloped the entirety of my mentality.
perhaps, with about an hour left, i'll set up whatever songs come to mind when i consider the most impactful favorites of mine, from songs like "KocitSkoria - Empty", "The Quick Brown Fox - PROSELYTISM", "The Quick Brown Fox & Klippa - MELANCHOLY passing into MANIA", and "YZYX - Dysnomia", to stuff like "hyi - misery", "Nearfield - Alone", "Kobaryo (feat. Sennzai) - northern_limit", and "Intronaut - Killing Birds With Stones", among other songs i've yet to recall by name.
...and just let it all pass in peace.
back to the void this tired skeleton goes.
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same question.