Not sure between psychology and biology. Maybe psychology, especially mental illness.

What is a song which you currently relate to?

Mili - Camellia

Sq

'Lost' by Within Temptation.

Sq

i dont understand wth u mean
relate to as in common with me?
Egoism 440-U1 High-Speed

Super Beaver, Rashisa.

SQ

"hyi - misery"



WEEEE BOTHHH KNOWWW MISERYYY...

WEEEE BOTHHH KNOWWW MISERYYY...

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SQ.

What are you good at?

Being a disappointment.

Sq

you didn't write a question.
do you wish you wanted camera shy? i do.

CallMeThey21 wrote:

you didn't write a question.

do you wish you wanted camera shy? i do.

Sq=Same question.
Ot: no

Journal wrote:

What are you good at?

Ok, I'll be a bit more serious. I think I'm quite good at getting through challenges and binge-watching psychology documentaries and YouTube videos (especially about abnormal behaviours). And I'm amazing at being indecisive!

What is something you're bad at?

Relating to people through genuine emotion, and actual empathy.

I know that I can understand people easily by taking on perspectives, but... not like that.

I don't know what they actually feel. I can only imagine. I keep aggravating people close to me, because they think i'd understand, but when they see how i act...

...they can't help but think i "don't care". emotions don't have to drive concern and care. the simple fundamental desire of "making things right" can be a purely logical one.

but i don't seem to show it. thst's what emotions are for. people can infer what you think by observing and relating with how you feel. i can only do the reverse. i consider what thought patterns lead to what they're displaying. i infer what they would reasonably feel from how they think and from what they believe.

other people can do both, provided they can effectively analyze with a detached perspective.

i wish i could understand you guys more. it's why i enjoy discussion. i feel as if i were an android struggling to be human.

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sq.

Socializing and learning from past mistakes

same

keeping certain parts of my personal life to myself

sq

Ahhh... well, in a weird way, it's something similar to Achro. Except, instead of not understanding others, I dont understand myself. I dont really feel what I feel, but I'm very good at empathy and it's actually one of the only ways I can figure out what's going on with my emotions. If I imagine someone else in my spot things make a bit more sense.

But I've talked about that before, so, ah....

I'm very all or nothing? Even with my attention span. I have ADHD and that makes it so either I cant focus on one thing at all or I hyper focus on it. In the same way, unless I commit myself to something, I find absolutely no way to interest myself in it. And it has to be a hard commitment. Like, do this every day for specific reasons and really work at it type of commitment.

I think it's a bad thing because it really limits me. I dont know much else past the things I focus on. Sure, I'm usually quite good at those specific things, but outside of those I'm pretty clueless and limited in my palette of experiences. It really bothers me because it makes it hard to socialize sometimes. Like, what do I even talk about with most people? I can manage small talk but my actual knowledge of stuff is quite literally limited to visual art, philosophy, physics, singing, martial arts, and video games. Do you know how hard it is to find people who are interested in talking about any of those things? It's not super easy...


Sq

I'm not bad

Are you bad?

Yes I am

Are you?

Define your standard of "bad".

I don't know enough to properly answer.

I don't really care to consider myself as either good or bad. I'm just myself, another person with another body of consequences being managed.

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Do you consider yourself as a morally inferior person by your own standards?

Yes, but probably because I put my standard too high that I would never reach it

Sq

This is a tough one. My ideas of being moral are quite different to other people's, from what I know.

I try to be nice to people but also be truthful with how I feel. If something, someone, an action, etc, really bugs me, then I will say so (..as long as it's online, I'm way too socially anxious to in real life at the moment). I believe that this helps people develop, even if they take it as 'being mean'.

That's just the sort of lifestyle I'm used to - I often get criticised by a friend for how I act in (e.g. social) situations and I appreciate the criticism as it allows me to grow (or, at least, try). Even if these criticisms are small things such as how quiet I am, or my body language when I'm anxious. I suck at socialising, I've always known that, but knowing specific areas I fail in is helpful. I criticise myself, too.

Sugarcoating and hiding stuff, on the other hand, is extremely unhelpful. I can't understand why people prefer this to just outright being truthful. Pretending you have no issues doesn't mean that you have no issues. I actually see that as an issue itself!

Personal development is more important to me than my dear feelings being protected.

In conclusion, I don't think of myself as morally inferior, I think of myself as morally different. But this isn't really something I've thought about in the past.

Same question.

I don't really know.

Do you have the Camera Shy achievement in osu?

No

Are you bored?

Yes.


Same question.

Not really, bed time's soon and for some reason I feel less bored when it's around this time.
However, I feel bored in the mornings no matter what I do! Maybe it's because I've usually been checking my emails a bunch during the mornings and my mind still can't get the change? Maybe the circadian rhythm has some influence (apparently I have a very strange sleep schedule for a teenager, as it's natural for teens to be night owls especially when there's no school)? Maybe it's because I know I'm sleeping soon? I don't know.

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What extent do you enjoy to listen to songs in different languages? If you listen to foreign music (outside of your native tongue), why?

A lot. I love a lot of music in languages I dont understand.

A lot of it has to do with the aesthetic of the song. Lyrics can add a lot of value to music based on the meaning of the words; but listening to only the sounds can produce very visceral emotional reactions. I enjoy it as a practice of trying to get a feel for the deeper emotion of the music. Also, I like the sound of a couple of languages and enjoy the difference that other languages can bring to a song purely in terms of sound. Japanese is probably my favorite but I've also listened to a fair bit of Norwegian songs.

I feel like I'm a bit unique in this however in the sense that no medium is as powerful to me, emotionally, as music. Listening to music can seriously create unique worlds, experiences, and feelings in a way that nothing else can for me. And it's usually very intense and moving. As an example, Shelter is one of my favorite songs but I cant even listen to it without gettinn sad and I've nearly cried cause of it before. I dont think people react that emotionally to music. So the different-language-for-emotions is probably unique in at least how much it affects me when compared to most people.

Same question, I like it.

Eyy, just about the same.

I do enjoy japanese vocals a lot, they've got a nice sound profile in the language and shit, it can get pretty damn good.

I don't listen to many other languages though. Primarily English and Japanese, maybe Korean.

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Fuck, Marry, or Kill. Choose between any of the three users above (Carmen, Puzzle, and I). Who's who, and why?

Based on what I know thus far,

kill Achro, fuck Carmen, marry Puzzle. I'll edit the why later ran out of time

Edit: So here the why's:

I know about Carmen the least and I couldn't justify either of the other 2 options for her, so fuck is my choice. It's a bonus that Carmen is female, afaik.

Even if the people I could choose from were different, as long as Achro is among them, I'd probably always kill Achro. I'm sorry Achro. I don't dislike you, in reality I feel empathy for you and your situation and would hope for your situation to improve, but if I absolutely have to kill someone, I'd probably always pick the one that has the least desire to actually live.

Puzzle remains and I guess I'll have to marry him. But honestly, I think, while his mental state doesn't seem to be perfect either, that our personalities would match rather well atm. I'm very competitive myself and seem to share a decent amount of traits and problems that accompany those traits with him, would help us get along for a longer period of time.

To explain one thing about the mental states and how they affect my choices, I don't think it's a good idea for someone with low energy like myself to be around depressed people too much, I'm very caring and have a lot of empathy, so depressed people, especially when I struggle to help them, drain all of my energy and turn me into a wreck. I need happy people around me to be healthy as a person. Maybe sounds self centred, but I'm 24 now and this is a lesson I learned from life, think about yourself first. You can't help your friends and the people you care about, if you don't function yourself, so there are times when I need to distance myself from other peoples problems and just focus on having fun and enjoying life, to recharge my energy, which I mostly do in solitude, as socializing also tends to drain a lot of energy when I'm already low on it.

SQ (3 users above, in this case Puzzle, Achro and myself)

Marry - myself

Fav breakfast

i don't have a favorite.

fuck, marry, or kill. who's who from the three users above, and why?

Kill Meah, Fuck Achro, Marry myself.

I found the one case where Achro lives.

I know this wasn't the question, but neither did you answer the question so I'm just going to ignore your presence and bump the actual question (check my previous post).

Edit: I got ninjaed but surpsingly I don't need to edit anything as it still fits. Huzzah. But I'd still want my original selection, being Achro, Puzzle and myself, since that one wasn't answered.

Kyo mine is the same as yours

Kill meah, fuck Achro, Marry Kyo

Sounds solid

Kill Meah because shit posts

Fuck Achro because he's my buddy and I don't think I could stand marrying him just because freakin' it'd be like marrying myself and that would be way too weird

Marry Kyo for lack of a better marriage and because we seem to have some things in common

Same quesh

Alright!

Tough one!

Well, in the case of two cool people, I guess it comes to this.

Kill myself, fuck Kyo, and marry Puzzle.

Probably the strangest of cases, but what the hell.

Kill myself, since I honestly don't really think I could bear to kill anyone (I could, but I don't think I could muster up the will to end anyone's life), and I'm pretty conflicted when it comes to an actual desire to live. I live to see things through, really. I think it would be kinda unfortunate, considering I've got a lot of people that'd probably get fucked and would be fairly affected by my death, especially my parents, relatives, friends both close and distant, and the many adults I've met who considered me a really intelligent and talented person with a bright future. It's depressing to see that their hopes were dashed by my death. I sadly don't see much of that promise in a bright future. I can imagine it, and I think it'd be enough. I'd kinda prefer if someone killed me though, since I'm a bit of a wimp when it comes to doin' it myself. I just can't care to. I don't have the willpower. But I'd be strangely alright with dying.

Fuck Kyo, because fuck you, you killed me (sounds like a really strange premise for a porno, but i'd honestly find it amusing) >:c

Marry Puzzle, I suppose. Would be incredibly awkward, but what the hell. Probably one of the few people to ever have such a sudden bond with. I meet you for one day, and we go from acquaintances to practically being lost siblings. I'd be alright with it.

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Same question!

Fuck kyo, marry puzzle, kill achro

Marry puzzle cause I can’t fuck a loli due to moral issue and can’t kill her cause she’s so cute

Fuck kyo cause he has good taste in arts and games

Kill achro because I don’t want to fuck or marry a skeleton (how do you put your dick into a skeleton anyway?)

Sq

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH wrote:

Marry puzzle cause I can’t fuck a loli due to moral issue and can’t kill her cause she’s so cute

Fuck kyo cause he has good taste in arts and games

Kill achro because I don’t want to fuck or marry a skeleton (how do you put your dick into a skeleton anyway?)

uhhh

we're talking about the people here, not the avatar, you large hecjin dork've >:c

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not answering or asking, just uhhh

ignore this post.

just had to mention that the person above might've answered based on completely irrelevant things.

hmm I don't know everyone well so

Fuck AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Marry Achro
Kill no one cause that's mean

uh same I guess

Achromalia wrote:

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH wrote:

Marry puzzle cause I can’t fuck a loli due to moral issue and can’t kill her cause she’s so cute

Fuck kyo cause he has good taste in arts and games

Kill achro because I don’t want to fuck or marry a skeleton (how do you put your dick into a skeleton anyway?)

uhhh

we're talking about the people here, not the avatar, you large hecjin dork've >:c

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not answering or asking, just uhhh

ignore this post.

just had to mention that the person above might've answered based on completely irrelevant things.

Oopshie doodle, my brain is a noodle

Well, marry achro, fuck puzzle, kill kyo

Marry achro cause he seems to be a cool and knowledgable dude to talk to

Fuck puzzle cause he seems to have a cute personality

Kill kyo for making me change my ava

Sq, thought dont mind this post when u r answering

I'm a flower

Sq

Marry Carm because grill

That's a shitty reason, I know, but I'd much rather spend the rest of my life with a chick instead of a dude, sue me

Also I dunno much about Carm but she seems pretty nice so far

Fuck Rebmare because he's chill and I've seen him around a bit and think he's cool

Kill AHHH cause he did the dirty with me and while he seems pretty cool I don't know him too much so I have to kill him which sucks but rules are rules. Gotta kill someone.

I'm sorry screamboi, I gotta put you down. It's nothing personal, I liked you :c

Edit: I forgot some things and also SAME QUESTION THIS ONES FUN