I remember when ranked mode was first introduced, I started playing it for the sole purpose of boosting my ego and proving myself as good in the game. Around that time I used to always flame shit teammates and call out opponents for being trash. At around the middle of season 3 though when I reached Diamond 5 it became a lot more than just being an ego boost; it became a way for me to slowly release me of my depression that I had since I was a kid. The league community is toxic; you have people flaming, sometimes trolling; people arguing about the smallest things and reporting for the slightest mistakes. Alot of times you would have some unlucky games that you couldn't do anything about and overall, ranked solo que was and is a very stressful experience. But I realised the way I treated the game reflected the way I treat my own life and in fact, in a way, the game reflected life itself. Sometimes you just have to move on, forget the bad moments and ignore the negativity. Something I have always struggled with is letting go of the past and I still struggle with it today, but by learning to deal people in ranked; by learning to be humble, polite and focusing on my own mistakes rather than others, not only helps me improve in the game, it also helps me get over my depression and be a better person. Getting to my peak rank of challenger during season 4 wasn't only a journey of becoming better at the game, it was a journey of self improvement. So despite the community being as toxic as it is, I wouldn't have it any other way. That's why I play on 10+ smurfs and only play solo on ranked; the journey from the bottom to the top is enjoyable to me because of the experiences I gain from the people I come across in solo que. From the bad games to the good games, each and every one is a good experience and it helps me fix the most predominant problem of my psyche; not being able to let go of the past. And that, is the sole reason I still keep coming back to this game.