i got a new job. finally, after months and months of searching and failing i got a new job. its going upwards again, i am proud of myself. i started working out again - i even changed my eating habits to the better. i'm happy again. i'm able to sleep without worrying. a job solves so many of my problems like feeling bad for living off my parents money - i can finally earn my own money again. everyone is so nice there, they all love my crazy haircolors. i can be myself there, i don't have to change. i am feeling really good and i am really happy.