Someday in October, I happen to chat with a girl here on osu! . Nothing unusual if not for the fact that I keep chatting with her everyday more, and I start liking her. As thé days pass by I start feeling moreand more affected to her. We decide tobecome a "couple" and I ask myself if it is theright thing to do because I'm skeptical about long distance relationships. Months pass and I love her more everyday. One day I start wondering if we could meet IRL. Turns out she can visit me in July. As I wait and wait, she decides to leave me in June after we had an argument about something stupid. It was ok. Well it wasn't ok at all but I thought "I'll get over it with time." Everything seems to be normal but some weeks after that I find out she left me for someone else. I fall in some sort of depression (??? I'm 16, hopefully i'll never know what réal dépression is.) The mixed feelings of manger, jealousy and deep sadness seem to be unbearable to the point I can't do anything productive IRL. I start harassing her in every way I can and I even decide to hurt myself once. The harassing ends on day. The process is slow, REALLY slow, but I'm starting to feel better. This sent on for about two weeks, until one day I findout this guy Will meet her in some days. There it all starts again. This time it's even worse than before.
She's sleeping next to him as I'm writing this. At the momoent, I don't have any hope of getting over it.
Tl; dr this is probably the worst night in my life. Sorry for any grammatical mistakes, this french tablet has an automatic corrector.
If you got any harsh comment about this, please keep it for yourself.