When I say "easy pp" I mean maps you can quickly FC, or farm very fast because they're no more than 30 seconds in length. You know, the 400 Granat maps, Cookie Butter, Sweet Neko, TATOE, Can you understand me and the list goes on. My 2 highest PP plays are these types of maps and looking back I feel guilty about getting scores on these maps or even trying these maps more than even once. I try to avoid the top 5 most played beatmaps of the month like the plague, because they're the type of stuff I want to get away from (except Get Jinxed because I like the song too much.)
I feel guilty like this cat, and the person filming is the smarter part of my conscious. I play these maps and just step back and look at what I'm doing and feel dirty for it.
HDDT farming is a bit different, for me getting a high accuracy DT score can be difficult and feel KIND of like I deserve the PP I got for it, but not always. I mostly mean nomoding the aforementioned maps at my skill level is still dirty.
Do I shrug off this mindset, and farm away and not give a fuck? OR should I just stick to what I do now and slowly dwindle in rank? Neither really feel good, because as I watch my rank decline I feel like I have to farm, but then I farm and then feel guilty about it. By farm I mean try these maps a few times, get pp higher than I feel like I deserve for it and ask "How? Why?" I understand I'm dealing with chump PP here, but at my rank if I continued to farm I feel I could rise quick, and undeserving. I can't really find a nice middle ground of enjoyable maps, and rank progression. Both correlate with each other more than I'd like them to. As much as I'd love to FC stuff like https://osu.ppy.sh/s/594121 or anything over the length of 3 minutes(if it's above 4.8*) I just can't.
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I feel guilty like this cat, and the person filming is the smarter part of my conscious. I play these maps and just step back and look at what I'm doing and feel dirty for it.
HDDT farming is a bit different, for me getting a high accuracy DT score can be difficult and feel KIND of like I deserve the PP I got for it, but not always. I mostly mean nomoding the aforementioned maps at my skill level is still dirty.
Do I shrug off this mindset, and farm away and not give a fuck? OR should I just stick to what I do now and slowly dwindle in rank? Neither really feel good, because as I watch my rank decline I feel like I have to farm, but then I farm and then feel guilty about it. By farm I mean try these maps a few times, get pp higher than I feel like I deserve for it and ask "How? Why?" I understand I'm dealing with chump PP here, but at my rank if I continued to farm I feel I could rise quick, and undeserving. I can't really find a nice middle ground of enjoyable maps, and rank progression. Both correlate with each other more than I'd like them to. As much as I'd love to FC stuff like https://osu.ppy.sh/s/594121 or anything over the length of 3 minutes(if it's above 4.8*) I just can't.
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