Been sober for 18 days now.

Started a new diet plan.

Been sober for 19 days now.. Probably will break my streak tomorrow though..

Read more literature. I need to get used to it if I want to be a good writer as well.

I've recently gone outside more to do some physical activity. I've also tried to clean out the old and bring in some new as well. I usually slouch so I'm also trying to fix that.
Overall, I'm trying to be more self-aware.

I have gotten a new mouse, Logitech G602 and that's helped me from the previous mouse if you can call it that

I've wasted the time to read this thread's first 20 pages.
That motivated me to write a "novel" about my case, which I haven't begun to solve at all yet.
But reading 44 to 46 (and 16 to 20) kind of blew a part of the motivation away...

xxxx, I'm repeating the procrastination...
I'll do it... Someday...

*Back to "Tries to gather motivation".*

So after all that time...
I took an appointment with the univ' psychol' for the 15th.

I'm still procrastinating my work, though.

Depends on what sort of bettering oneself you mean:

1) In osu!

I guess simply trying out more styles of music to adapt to different rhythms and beats and also using more mods such as [Hr, Hd, etc]

2) IRL

Honestly disconnecting for a while from the computer and consoles and actually hang out with people and work out, funny enough, after jogging or any physical activity my performance in osu tends to get better

So i guess that's nice

I got tired of always begin the one who has to ask friends somewhere, so I decided it'd be better to just completely distance myself from other people and re-learn living as a shut in. To someone this may seem like going worse than better, but trust me, my overall mood is way better this way. Before I could at times just get sad (especially when I did nothing to distract my thoughts) because it felt like no-one really wanted to have me around or something. This probably wouldn't be an issue if as simple thing as starting a conversation with someone wouldn't be so huge struggle (the feeling of bothering the other person is what mostly holds me back). I don't know if there is any other way to make things better without having to distance myself from others, but this just seemed to be the easiest option I could think of.

Actually participating in school. I've learned everything I need there at work, but I kinda realized that being decoration with good grades still results in more or less bad grades when you never say a word and always spent time on your phone. I already fixed my grades now, but I am very close to the best students in my class and maybe I can even pass their grades average by the end of the year.

I also decided to quit partying every second weekend untill August when I attend Psy-Fi 2017. It kinda became a crucial part of my life and even though I met the most precious people of my life on most of the raves, it still results in me being out of money all the time because I ended up wasting over 150-200€ everytime I went out.

These days I think more often about where I will be if I continue my bad habits (procrastinating, playing osu! hah, etc.) and what I can do to become a better person internally. I'm working on putting important things like family, homework, and laundry first before I hop on to osu! or whatever I wish to do for a while.
Idk how well its going but it feels good to not worry about things that should've been done in the first place.

just leaving those misses and keep the map playing...

just earning some cash for a better future

didnt smoke a cig in 4 days, trying to limit myself to ~5 a week for a while, from that to 1 and progressively quit if possible

x

I've been more honest with myself, I think?

100% focus

keep worrying about my junk PC...

so it let me play seriously

Nothing. My life is a disaster and I keep pretending that everything's fine and dandy.
I guess posting here is a good start. I'm no longer in denial and I can do something about it.

I've spent more time actually doing work before I do anything else like games and stuff like that. I have a really bad habit of getting sidetracked while I work so it's kind of hard for me to sit down and do all my work in one sitting. I've been forcing myself recently and so far, I've been seeing improvements.

Take 1 term again to complete my essay.
and doing morning exercise...
yeah thats for now...

I decided to switch to DT farming instead of nomod

.

Ive been trying to gain strength, and just become a better person irl

A month from now I'm in 10th grade D:

listening to songs

It's been such a long time since I last posted here, about 2 years ago. There's something new. Story incoming.

I really don't like people. It takes a good amount of time before I even consider someone an acquaintance.

I knew someone from a Facebook anime page (I started it, he was an admin) and we played Osu! together. We had a lot of Skype calls and the like. I would have known him for 4 years by now. He was essentially my best friend. He introduced me to his other group of friends, and they were fine and dandy. I met someone from that group who eventually became my girlfriend (now ex-gf). I loved her, I liked my best friend, and I was on pretty good terms with the group.

Cue some night in August. I hadn't talked to them in a while. They had changed their meetings and didn't tell me about it (first flag). GF wants me to have a chat with the group. I say why not. I show up and one of the group members (call him Jake) shows up first. He says hi and I say hi. Eventually everyone starts piling in, including best friend. Jake starts making moves on my GF in front of me. She's smiling, laughing, playing along -- obviously, I didn't appreciate it. Best friend helps Jake by means of adding background music as Jake continues his speech. GF is still smiling. Best friend starts laughing. Everyone's laughing at me.

I leave without saying anything and GF was there for another hour until I send her a text telling her how I felt. She said sorry, but obviously, I could tell she didn't really care. Broke up with her in March over other matters.

Moral of the story: People will use you to your benefit. Doesn't matter who, doesn't matter why. The moment they can use you, they'll do it.
What have I done to better myself?
I have not trusted anyone. If someone tries to get too close to me, I shut them off. As the words of wisdom on my profile say,

Those who you call "friends" will turn on you the moment it benefits them.
They will slander, steal, deceive, lie, manipulate, and cheat.
Do not let yourself be abandoned. Do not give them any openings.
Mercy is weakness; kindness is sin.

im depressed for my lessons and rewatch fairy tail from the beginning till end :^)
i dont have any anime to watch atm, u can suggest me :3

nomod.
Then stick to HD.
and DT.
EZDT.

Starting to follow trend lately so at least i can talk if needed to if situation become awkward between my friends.

what im i kidding , weebs doesnt not talk irl stuff.

i hope this pays off

Well after about a year being locked up in my room and going through anxiety and depression, I finally got a job at a grocery store. And ever since I got this job, I've lost about 20 pounds with in about 3 months, I'm actually talking to people and I'm actually making friends. I'd say this is a huge step for me!

Downloading my new driving lessons, and yes, i'm reading them.

Lately I've been developing a checklist to complete for myself, such as exercising a bit everyday, working on my Spanish and German a bit everyday, performing at least one random act of kindness to a stranger, etc.
I've also been trying to work on my positivity, and honestly, I've been feeling a lot better recently because of it!
I hope you can also better yourself in any way you can, even if it's just by a little bit.

I need love

Actually taking care of myself, and actually trying to look and feel cute and confident.
Mostly because i hate how i look irl.

Hmm quite a lot
I've just started reading the novel Seventh Plague. I've also been trying to go over my 20-XP goal in Duolingo and to learn one new skill in each language I'm learning (check my sig) each day
I need to exercise more and then go out and hang with my irl friends. Most importantly, stay curious, motivated, and with an open mind.
Advice pls (•-•)~>

endorsing myself in my waifu dimensions

I stopped masturbating and watching porn two months ago. It's good.

stopped eating fast food

Started clearing my work and home space of all this crap, it feels so good !